Tracks of my tears

I need back my blog,
Coz I need to let loose.

It's my toughest challenge in life,
Having to lose someone I known for life,
Somoene who is so close to me,
Someone whom I have live with since I was born,

Everyday I walk pass his room,
I'll catch a glimpse of his bed,
And my heart swells,

It's easy to listen to advice,
Telling you that it will happen to old age,
And it's easy to nod in an agreement,
But there's still a hole in my heart,
Indicating to me how much I miss him,

When his favourite channel is turns on,
And I look at his favourite spot,
It reminds me of his absence at home,
And my heart turns sour,

I wish working is as flexible as studying,
Coz I'm not prepared to face the world yet,

I know each of us are hiding the pain behind our laughter,
Coz we still need to take care of the other important person,
Which we appreciate and cherish even more,
We can't afford to lose her,
Because she's all we got now,
She's as fragile as a newborn baby,
We love her so much,
We don't want her to be sad over the loss,
We are trying our best to cheer her up,

I'm so tired,
I'm mentally exhausted,
Football couldn't even make me feel any better,
I don't know how to cope with the loss,
I try not to think but it's not easy,
It's killing me,

I miss him so much,
All of us won't be the same without him.