i welcome this pain....

"Get over it," said my friend.
I don't know...
It seems hard to get rid of this feeling...

When I saw the name appears
It's like something hit me
And I'm like stoned and direction-less

And sometimes I feel like I'm wearing a mask
Hiding the true feeling behind a smile
I feel real good when I'm with my friends...
But when I'm at home
I feel different and difficult

I'm ok when I don't see it
But when I see it, immediately I feel different...
Meaning I haven't recovered...

Sigh~
I feel hopeless
I don't know what else to say anymore....

I've lost count...

of how many weeks and days we have been like this, or
I have been like this
Bugged by this thing
In my head

It might be easier for others
But not me
Definitely not me
I do not know why

But I'm getting there
Gonna try my best
Letting time wash away
The feeling that does not worth any of my time and my care

I just committed a sin
By cursing him
Because of the way he is making me miserable
It's not healthy to curse someone

I can't help myself
That's what most people do anyway
Revenge and anger
That's the easiest way to make people feel better

But that's not true
It actually makes people feel worse
Because you curse someone you care and love so much
Or should i use past tense?

I don't know
But the feelings still in me
Like I've said
It's only matter of time

Don't Treat Me Like A Fool

Such a old song by my all-time favourite band, Blue.

It's been hard wakin' up, wakin' up to the truth
I've been so blind, couldn't see for love no.
Tried my best to ignore it, wish the pain away
But just like tomorrow, its coming round again.

So darling, please don't treat me like a fool.
Its been hard enough for me, getting over you
Darling please don't treat me like like you do
I'll be damned if I am gonna let ya
Damned if I don't forget ya
So please don't treat me - like a fool.

Thought I gave you the best, but it wasn't enough
You took advantage of my trusting heart
Tried my best to forgive you, did my best to forget
I am done with the tears and there are no regrets.

So darling, please don't treat me like a fool.
Its been hard enough for me, getting over you
Darling please don't treat me like like you do
I'll be damned if I am gonna let ya
Damned if I don't forget ya
So please don't treat me - like a fool.

I know I'll be reaching out to touch you in the night
Holding on to the memories, Cos you're not here to hold me tight
You lied when you told me, It hurt to be apart
When all the lying you're doing is in someone else's arms.

So darling, please don't treat me like a fool.
Its been hard enough for me, getting over you
Darling please don't treat me like like you do
I'll be damned if I am gonna let ya
Damned if I don't forget ya
So please don't treat me - like a fool.

I'm so done!!