Am I speaking alien language or what?

"You are girl and you are the eldest, so you gotta do it"
What fucking statement or theory is this?

I did not say I don't want to do some chores, my point is why I'm always the one to do?
It's not as if my younger brother is 12 years old or what. He is fucking 18years old.
Why can't balance up a bit? That's my point.
But nobody fucking get what I'm trying to point out.
I'm not a robot. I don't simply obey orders if I have questions.

Who create the theory that women MUST do the household chores?
Stupid fucking unreasonable theory!
I don't get it. Someone has to give me a reasonable answer to this.

Stupid day!!!
Stupid!!
I hate people spoiling my fucking good day.

"Why didn't you stop him from buying the expensive formal shoes?"
WTF! I did. (Read below)

"The jeans are so cheap. I wanna buy."
"But you already bought 3 pairs of jeans."
"No, I did not. Those two are pants."
"Well then, ok. As you like. I don't know if mum will nag you when you get back."

"Mum, I saw cheap jeans, I wanted to buy."
"Then why not?"
"Neh...sister loh...don't let me buy."
"It's because you (sister) said that, you spoil my mood of buying."

Fuck!

Anyway, anyone understand me?
Am I typing in Spanish? French?

Dear Judge, please hear my final conclusion.
I have no complain in doing some household chores, but I'm just asking for a lil fairness between me and brother,
asking for some simple understanding.

I know why mum acted this way.
I've been observing for quite some time.
All the while, dad cares about me more, I have conversation with dad more than my bro with dad.
while mum loves my brother more, although me and mum always have good conversation and stuff, but I can feel mum sort
of like sayang my bro more, rarely ask him to do anything.
Anyhow, my point is still on the fairness.

In the middle of anger, I saw local news reporting on Man U-Derby and it brings a smile to myself.

Lessons learnt from this: Keep my bitch mouth shut no matter how i feel unfair. Breathe deep and count 1, 2, 3 and
think of Rooney and Man U.
Yes, I can do it. (:

My most precious boys are coming to town

OH YESS I found out yesterday evening and i had gone hysteria.
The first person I told is my mum who was in the kitchen, second is my dad who was in the room, and then went to kitchen and started telling mum about me plan.

I said I will bring the England flag with MU logo on it (my cousin brother bought for me from UK), it's big you know. I wanna attract Rooney. Hahahaha...
Oh yes... and maybe I'll do a banner saying "I'm so in LOVE with Wayne Rooney coz he's the AWESOMEST player in the world and he's so BLOODY CUTE" (I know there's no such word, but I have to draw his attention)
Oh yes I've fallen head over heels at WAYNE ROONEY, the person you ALL called as SHREK! HMMMMPH!!

You see, I'm gonna tell you how I started to like this boy.
First, after he scored against arsenal in Everton kit and before he joined MU, he has been the rumours that Fergie wanna replaced Van Nistelrooy with him. I was furious, crazy and sad. (I'm pathetic, I know- it's not like those were any of my business)
Anyway, when he joined MU, he played SO BLOODY WELL, and how could I hate him? How could I?
And then, my feelings for him started to grow, til now, I'M IN LOVE WITH THE MAN THAT I COULDN'T POSSIBLE BE WITH. (LOL)
Everyone thinks he is ugly, but not to me. I'm so indulge with his skills on the pitch that I see nothing but BEAUTIFUL in him.

Ok enough of my crap. Back to what I want to do when MU comes to town.
I think I'm gonna write a letter to Rooney, to let him know that there is still ONE girl in the world that thinks he is truly beautiful, and appreciates him.
When Chelsea came last year, there had this so called autograph session (it was published in paper) but when Suet Mann and I went to Adidas Pavillion waiting-cum-pushing in the crowd, one of the authority said the paper got it all wrong, it supposed to be a closed up interview but if we behaved, they will let us see FROM ENTRANCE.
Guess who came? First, Paul Masefield, and then the infamous blogger Kenny Sia, then Dina from Malaysian Idol, and finally........finally.....I thought I will get to see England captain.... I thought.....or maybe England midfielder Frank Lampard.....but..... ONLY Michael Ballack came.
And I only get a glimpse of him.
Nevermind, am not complaining, at least I get to see Germany captain, Euro 2008 finalist. It's a big deal to me ;P
I made a card with the shape of 'JT' and wrote something inside, thought would get to see him...
Wait, before you even think I'm an unloyal fan to MU, NO, what I wrote inside is purely about England and the future, nothing on Chelsea.

Oh shit, I've gone too far. Back to my boys. I'm afraid this will happen when MU comes.

Anyhow, I can't wait to see my fav team on the planet, my life, my passion, my everything.
Sir Fergie....yes...finally...I can meet him, before he retires.
Oh, I think I need to write him a letter.
I don't want him to leave the club. Or if he has to leave, I have to ask him to pick a manager that thinks like him.
And maybe write a letter to Ronaldo, ask him to be loyal to the club, fans and teammates.
I need to write something that can make him touch. (LOL)

Gosh I have a few books for them to sign.
1. Wayne's book (I've read two times)
2. Cristiano's book
3. 2 Man U books

I'm missing Fergie's book. No money to buy yet. Hahaha

Sigh~
My precious boys......

Can I apply for bodyguard position when they come here?
I damn sure that I make a better bodyguard than any experience bodyguards in the world.
I won't let anyone to harm my boys.....
Call me crazy.....

fear and avoidance

I'll just cut the crap of how-long-i-never-post and  straight to what I'm feeling right now.

A huge sigh released as I finally acknowledge my main issue.

I've been busy filling up my boredom with something which is not as important as creating my resume and applying jobs, and starting up my business report.

I've been avoiding, because if I don't think, I don't have to worry or scared.

I'm scared of the new responsibilities, the new environment and the new people that are waiting in front.

I'm scared of changes in my life.

I'm scared of not having the personal time that I have now.

I'm scared of my future career.

I love the life I'm having now- being a student.

I don't want it to end fast.

I'm afraid of the unfamiliar path ahead.

I wish there's a way to avoid...

=(