i welcome this pain....

"Get over it," said my friend.
I don't know...
It seems hard to get rid of this feeling...

When I saw the name appears
It's like something hit me
And I'm like stoned and direction-less

And sometimes I feel like I'm wearing a mask
Hiding the true feeling behind a smile
I feel real good when I'm with my friends...
But when I'm at home
I feel different and difficult

I'm ok when I don't see it
But when I see it, immediately I feel different...
Meaning I haven't recovered...

Sigh~
I feel hopeless
I don't know what else to say anymore....