I've lost count...

of how many weeks and days we have been like this, or
I have been like this
Bugged by this thing
In my head

It might be easier for others
But not me
Definitely not me
I do not know why

But I'm getting there
Gonna try my best
Letting time wash away
The feeling that does not worth any of my time and my care

I just committed a sin
By cursing him
Because of the way he is making me miserable
It's not healthy to curse someone

I can't help myself
That's what most people do anyway
Revenge and anger
That's the easiest way to make people feel better

But that's not true
It actually makes people feel worse
Because you curse someone you care and love so much
Or should i use past tense?

I don't know
But the feelings still in me
Like I've said
It's only matter of time