Am I a demanding friend?

I have been feeling that I am losing this really close person to me (no, not in a dying way...)
The way this person acts makes me feel that this is like a one-sided thing, me treating this person special in a way, but I don't get this kind of treatment in return.
I understand that when you treat someone nice, you shouldn't be hoping for a return. As long you sincerely treat them nice, then it's good.
But, it's really sad to feel that this person may not feel the way I feel (no not bf/gf love)
We've known each other for very long, we've established that kind of friendship level, but does that mean we know each other too long to really care bout one another?
I think I tried my best in maintaining the friendship, I did told this person of my existence if this person encounter any problem; however, my offer hardly accepted by this person.
Probably this person feels that I don't understand the life this person is facing now, that I cannot help this person in any way.
Well, I may not understand, but I always offer my time, my pair of ear, and my heart for this person.

Like I said, I feel like I'm losing this important person in life, and whenever I think bout it, it's heart-wrecking.


p/s: The lights are off in my room. Those in my living rooms are too ignorant, I guess. Anyhow, I did what I could to help my earth.

It's really a bad week

It has not been good since the 1-4 defeat to Liverpool.
I've sense the coming of bad week.
From the worst defeat to class cancellation (slept for 3-4 hours and went to college only to discover class cancelled) to gastric (yesterday) to plan spoiled (today) to (upcoming) friday night outing.
This sums up my whole week as bad. (I hope Saturday outing can makes me happy).

Today's outing has been planned.
Never expecting someone to spoil it. (Although mum and bro weren't bothered by the changes in plan).
But the whole point of the plan is to bring me eat something I like to eat.
Instead, we had to change plan and eat with other ppl in oth place.
Some ppl are just so inconsiderate...no I wont use that word. More of ignorant than inconsiderate because some ppl just ignore your plan and do things that they wanna do.
Just like what my lecturer said. People are ignorant of some issues. They just wanna hear the things they wanna hear.
At the end of the day, we did went to the place I wanna eat, but we were like forcing ourselves to eat. It makes me did not appreciate the food I like.

I'm having class on Friday, 5.30pm to maybe 8pm.
My friends plan to go karaoke with me in 1u after class.
Whoever knew me will know I am not allowed to go.
When I hear ppl saying "c'mon you are 22...." it makes me feel pressured and unhappy because... thank you for reminding me that I'm already 22 and I am still controlled by my dad and he won't let me go out at night.
I'm not angry at the person saying this.
I just hope people SEE my situation, UNDERSTAND my situation, STAND in my shoes to feel what I feel.
What can I do? Get rebellious? Argue with dad over I'm-22-and-I-am-allowed-to-do-or-go-wherever-whatever-I-want???
I'm so over this kind of argument because I just want peace at home. As long no drama in the family and nobody pissing me off, I considered a bless.
And I'm so lazy to explain to ppl what sort of character is my dad when ppl likes to tell me to negotiate with him, talk nicely with him (as if I did not).
I am really bothered by ppl telling me I'm already 22 and the fact that I'm 22, I can't go out at night like others same age as me. It sounds really shameful to me.

Anyway.....
I just hate this week.
When ppl failed me, football never does. Urm, well the 1-4 defeat is an exceptional case.
Football can cheer me up when it's not a football-related issue. Hahaha

Quote of the day : MSN chatting is a waste of time.

My argument: MSN chatting is an enjoyment, a pleasure, an entertainment. What is wrong with chatting with friends?
Why do people think watching CNN, BCC, Bloomberg is not a waste of time?
Why stereotype on MSN chatting?
Chatting with friends can release your stress. Chatting with friends can makes you feel that life isn't that suck when you had a bad day in work.
Chatting with friends can be an intellectual chat.
Anyway, what a waste to argue bout this.

There's something I wanna complaint...but....it's ok. I just shut my bitch mouth.

Remember I said earlier football can cheer me up?
Not only football, my mate never fails to make me smile or laugh when I'm having bad day.
She's a really good friend, a caring friend.
I considered her as one of my very close friend.
Good friends are really hard to find. Someone who really listens to you, sees you, know you inside out.
I have a couple. I'm glad.

Let's just ends here.

Buenos Noches :)

When I'm supposed to do my thesis.....

From reading my research articles to scanning my exam transcripts to.........
It's so typical of me you know.

And you think only men buy Men's Health?

And you think the above issue is easy to find?
I was lucky enough to find it coincidentally in the Indian mag store near my college after the issue was out few years ago.
I do not believe I can find it few years ago. You know why?
Because this is an UK issue.
I've noticed, I hardly see an UK issue here.

The below one is US issue. There's only Malaysia and US issue I can find here.
My brother will only buy Malaysia issue because it is cheap, like half price of the US issue.
Only ham sap (pervert in english) girl like me would fork out the unnecessary money to buy, just to drool at my fav boys.


And do you think I'm intellectual enough to get a copy of Time?
To read about current issues?
No. Although I'm 22 but I think I have a brain of a 15-year-old. Mum and brother agree to it. I'm immature bla bla bla.
Thank you, I would like to stay like that.
Muahahahaha
Anyway, I don't need to explain why I bought Time, do I?


Lalalalala
Boring topic for you to read, but it's very entertaining to me.

p/s: Please tell me you love my boys. MY boys. Yes I'm very possessive when it comes to boys.