New music makes me feel so good

Time helps me to deal with bad days,
I can see that everyone here is trying their best to move on,
Trying very best to forget bad days,
But not forgetting the person we've lost,

We all are struggling,
But everyone is being positive to each other,
Trying to bring up the spirit and motivate each other,
I can see some positive difference compares to last week,

I am doing better now,
Today I found a handful of REALLY awesome songs,
It makes me so happy,
And I feel my life begin to have colours back,

I used to love staying in office for long,
Not wanting to come home right away,
But after losing someone important,
I treasure my family more now,
And I want to come home from work right away,
I wanna stay at home more often,

Going forward,
I wish for positive news,
I wish for healthiness and happiness to my family.

This is the real beginning of my life

I thought dealing with loss of someone I love is already a headache to me,
But, problems keep surfacing,
Or I should rather say to myself,
"You have avoid the reality long enough,
This is the real challenges in your life",

It's superbly tough and a heavy burden to everyone, including me,
I know that if all of us can overcome each problem one by one,
All of us will be very proud,
Grandpa will rest in peace,
Grandma will stay healthy and live longer,

It's definitely not easy,
I have a lot of things to control, to amend, and to improve,
In order to contribute and help out,
I don't know if I can achieve it,
I don't know if all of us can stay strong,

The most important thing is my great worry over my grandma,
The more she worries, the lower her health level will be,
And the more stress I will be having,
I really don't know,
I feel lost at the moment,
Lost in the sea,
Don't know which direction to go,

I need guidance,
I need someone to hold my hand,
And walk every step with me,

I really don't know....
All I know,
I miss Him a lot....

It means nothing

For the first time ever,
Man Utd match means nothing to me,
I don't feel anything when Man Utd performed badly yesterday night against Sunderland,
In other days, I will feel disappointed and sad,
However, yesterday night, I watched for the sake of watching,
I was feeling numb,
I got no interest,
And all I want is for the match to end asap,
Coz I was feeling so tired,
I was battling with my eyelids,

Today I was looking at the newspaper sports section,
And I wanted to feel something for the draw,
But, I just couldn't,

For the first time,
Man Utd means nothing to me,

Tomorrow, it's gonna be a long day to battle with....

Tracks of my tears

I need back my blog,
Coz I need to let loose.

It's my toughest challenge in life,
Having to lose someone I known for life,
Somoene who is so close to me,
Someone whom I have live with since I was born,

Everyday I walk pass his room,
I'll catch a glimpse of his bed,
And my heart swells,

It's easy to listen to advice,
Telling you that it will happen to old age,
And it's easy to nod in an agreement,
But there's still a hole in my heart,
Indicating to me how much I miss him,

When his favourite channel is turns on,
And I look at his favourite spot,
It reminds me of his absence at home,
And my heart turns sour,

I wish working is as flexible as studying,
Coz I'm not prepared to face the world yet,

I know each of us are hiding the pain behind our laughter,
Coz we still need to take care of the other important person,
Which we appreciate and cherish even more,
We can't afford to lose her,
Because she's all we got now,
She's as fragile as a newborn baby,
We love her so much,
We don't want her to be sad over the loss,
We are trying our best to cheer her up,

I'm so tired,
I'm mentally exhausted,
Football couldn't even make me feel any better,
I don't know how to cope with the loss,
I try not to think but it's not easy,
It's killing me,

I miss him so much,
All of us won't be the same without him.